feelings

ohh the frankness of lynn had shot me down from the sky. woo!! chalet, lynn said 'maybe joshua has never ever had feelings for anyone'. i know for sure, i dont like feeling anything other than neutral. theres this email on facebook saying that tonnes of people put pics up haha i have never been a fan of pictures cause i dont like to look back on my past. somehow, i saw those pictures of genting trip, chalet and all, i felt like i missed all my friends. (already!?)

feelings huh? somehow my impression of feeling is nothing but pain. im usually so happy its like happy is neutral for me, and neutral is well, worse than neutral for me. we all know that 'love is only a feeling'. that is so true, and some may lie, backstab, or to the extreme kill just for love. that aside, when you miss someone, you feel a sinking feeling in your chest. when you love someone, the slightest things can make you hurt. and well, people who are in a relationship with more than one person could be considered liking more than one person at a time, but can never be considered mature enough to seriously love anyone.

well im no one to judge cause different people have different opinions on affections anyway. i know its gona sound gay, and unexpected from me, but i really do miss all you dopt people. im confident to say i dint do anything to harm you all, but sadly, i dint do enough. many thanks to all the people who realised who i really am, and those who pulled me through all my down times=)

'The only reason why people don't like you is cause they don't know you yet.'